Isn't it the way things go? One day I'm off and running and making huge leaps and bounds in this business thing. The next? Absolutely nothing. It's enough to give a fella a sense that all this up hill battle can only mean one thing .... But, I refuse to have those thoughts anymore. The truth of the matter is that set backs are a part of life. I've made the decision to be deliberate in learning about failure. Though not getting any work done today is not a "failure", it is a chance to evaluate some things. I'm still teaching. This summer I'm not teaching nearly as much as I used to, but, it's still taking time away from what I'd rather be doing - working on this here performance aspect of my career. I mention all this because, well, the life of a musician isn't all it's cracked up to be. I remember a long time ago I (naively) thought it was all about writing songs and performing them and you, the fan, would love me and that's the end of the story. HA HA HA HA! The truth of the matter is that I've spent MY LIFE practicing, honing, studying, analyzing, practicing, and practicing and ... oh, yeah, practicing. And at the end of the day, this career is really only about 10 percent of that. The real deal is all the "behind the scene" work that goes on that I feel so ill-equipped to do. I have eschewed honing other skills for the sake of performing music. I used to consider myself a writer, a visual artist, a philosopher ... I stopped everything so that I could dedicate, in totality, my life to music. So, here I am, a sensitive artist-type working as a businessman. The real irony is that I'm an artist who seeks constant affirmation, encouragement, and support working in an industry that is the antithesis of affirmation, encouragement and support. It's no wonder so many of us end up as addicts. It's a very weird place to be. Anyway ... how'd I go down that trail? Oh, yeah. Rant. Anyway, I'm just feeling a bit frustrated because I didn't get hardly anything done today to keep moving the ball forward. Tomorrow will be a better day.

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